Waiting for my brain to catch up.

I thought my post exams blog post would be all rainbows and butterflies and I’m pretty sure that’s how I’ll feel by the end of the day, but meh, nothing ever goes to plan! I just needed to write a crappy post to break my two week blog drought so bear with me!

Wow. Exams for the first semester of two thousand and bloody nine are over!!! I finished yesterday and went with the girls to eat the best gourmet pizzas for the best prices (I’m not actually looking to advertise them but YUM).

I got home and I felt good. I relaxed, wasted a bit of time making the customary facebook statuses about finishing the semester and I watched a bit of teev. Sure, I do that kind of stuff all the time, but this time it was GUILT FREE! Until Monday morning, my brain is free from thoughts of studying. I can do whatever I like with my days. I can go wherever I like. I don’t have to do anything too strenuous.

Also, the end of that semester is symbolic for me. It doesn’t just symbolise the end of some arduous study time, but it symbolises the end of a rough period for me. I got sick a lot, the hubby and I have worried about our finances a lot and all round it was a sucky time where to be honest, positive thinking eluded me time and time again (I’m usually annoyingly perky and upbeat – there’s so much in life to celebrate – so very unlike me to be all negative). So yesterday after my exam I was also having a private little celebration inside my overworked brain because I realised the end of those exams was the beginning of a more positive era.

So of course, I surprised myself when I woke up at 1am worrying about stuff. Hasn’t my brain had enough?? I worried about our finances (another few weeks we just have to hold on as hard as we can because things will get worse before they get much better). I worried about the fact that having less money affects us in other ways than what you would expect. Socially, I feel isolated and all those sorts of emo things that I won’t bore you with.

So I got up, journalled it all out of my system and then tried to distract myself by reading every blog post in my google reader.

I went back to bed at 3am and hugged the hubby tight. He left for work in the early hours and I kept on sleeping…only to have a dream that I was sitting in my last exam and I needed to complete a lot of it in order to pass one of my units.The lights kept going on and off, the supervisory people kept talking to us and we were kind of in a position where we were pretty much allowed to cheat in a closed book exam. I thought it just seemed really really wrong and didn’t finish my exam in time.

So I freaked out and woke up.

What the?! How unfair of my subconscious! I’m thinking of divorcing it! I’ve had enough crap for a while!! It’s time to relax and look after me!! So many good things are about to happen!

EXAMS ARE O.V.E.R!!!!!!! For now…